What if the stress of knowing that they are worrying about you will cause your personal struggle to be even more difficult? What do you do? Do you share the news with them or do you keep it to yourself and ride it out until things improve just focusing on your personal trial?
Now, what if that struggle has to do with your health? And your health depended on little to no stressors in order to become stronger...healthier?
There have been many of you that have been wondering where I have been, inquiring of my health, and even others requesting an update. Well, I am now strong enough to sit at this computer and type out what I have been struggling with these past couple months.
My legs became so swollen with infection that I was not able to be on my feet for more than 5 minutes at a time. My legs would become a dark purple if I stood too long and my skin felt as if it would burst open from the swelling. Standing to take a shower or walk to the bathroom became a painful chore that I dreaded. This left me with no option but to be stricken to bed rest which lasted for the majority of the past several weeks.
Unable to resist the intense itching, I also suffered nerve damage caused from the excessive scratching. That nerve damage resulted in pain similar to what a burn victim might experience. Unable to even handle the touch of clothing next to my skin without the burning pain of what seemed like a thousand needles stabbing my body, I was left with a very limited selection of what I could wear.
Hugs were out of the question. Cuddling my newborn baby was also something that I could not handle. Nursing him was enough of a struggle, that as soon as I was done, I had to hand him off to someone else to hold and burb him.
Since those stressors and many others were the main triggers of my flare-ups, we have all had to learn to keep things very low-key around here.
My healing has been positive, but it has taken its toll on my body, mind and spirit. Yet, we have all gained a positive experience while trudging through the trenches. My home has become more calm, more quiet and overall more peaceful. Showing gratitude in the wonderful blessings that surrounded me- my loving family, my supportive husband, our helpful children and the blessing of having a healthy, beautiful baby, not to mention the knowledge shared from my team of health providers- gave me the strength to improve.
I have now reduced my rash to approximately 20% of my body, my strength is returning, the pain is reducing, swelling is gone and I feel my spirit has been uplifted. As my good friend, Shiloah told me...Healing is Mine!