This is an interesting video my mom sent me.

Makes you wonder...what does this all mean?

Today I pack my 15 year old son who has Autism (more specifically, Asperger's Syndrome) to go live with my dad & his new wife whom I have only spoke to on the phone.

Am I leary or uneasy about this decision?  Not in the slightest.  Does that make me a bad mom?  I think not. 

Dylan struggles so hard at living amongst such a 'busy' family that he is constantly being stimulated.  He never receives a break from us.  I believe that is why he chooses to go to his room and sleep most of the day away.  We are just TOO MUCH for him at times.  That seems to be his only way of debriefing from everything.

It is sad that we cannot have him here near us & be comforted at the same time.  He needs the stimuli decreased or better yet removed. 

Without being able to remove the stimuli, we are left with removing him from it.  That is where my dad & Carrie come into the picture.  They are such loving and charitable people.  I know, they are family, one should expect it from family.  But this is different.

I have not seen my dad in years.  Haven't really been around him much in my lifetime.  But, for some unknown reason I am greatly comforted by the willingness and openess my dad & Carrie have towards this decision.  Well we all know why.  This is how Heavenly Father wants it to be. 

I've always known that I would not be able to keep him.  I mean, I've always had a deep rooted feeling; dreamed about it even (although I felt they we like nightmares) that he would be taken from me.  I never thought I would be needing to send him away.

But away isn't so far off.  My dad lives in Nevada.  That's about 6-8 hours away.  And Dylan deserves this chance...more like this opportunity to succeed.

My dad will be an excellent mentor for him.  He is a devoted christian and has come far from knowing the depths of darkness that he can endure this trial or test or possibly even a blessing that comes his way this day.

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